Part 2. The BOOK of the books

11. The Development

There are different kind of developments. There is development as general phenomena. The world is developing. The production systems are developing and so on. I’m not interested in the following chapters about this kind of development. I’m only interested in the development of a person. The human beings are looking for good and better life. And when they are doing that, they use the development as a tool. As you understand, the behavior of one person, will reflect into the phenomena of development in general. When a large group of people behave the same way they give birth to a big pattern. So to understand the bigger picture, you have to understand the behavior of one person. And more general terms the one person is you.

As I told you the story of my road began, when I Perceived, what the word development meant. The discovery was, that the development doesn’t do, what it promises to do. Nobody can reach the Goal of the Life with it.

What ever the people say about the motive of the development. The pure truth is, that the forward driving force is the dissatisfaction. ”I am not good and/or I haven’t got enough!”

The development doesn't do that. It doesn’t help. Over and over again the person have to go to a new development circle to be better. If the dissatisfaction would go away we would stop and say ”Now I have enough, thank you!”

Later I included to my thoughts about development a saying: ”Today is tomorrow yesterday!” Meaning, that I behave tomorrow the same way than I behaved today. When I don’t reach the Goal today, when I am dissatisfied today, I want to think or hope, that tomorrow brings it to me. When I am now living the tomorrow, which is now today, I keep on hoping today that the tomorrow will bring the ’goods’. It never will, that is the truth behind the saying. That gives only the birth to the personal development and to the development in general. So even how hard I work, there is no hope in that system of the thoughts!

Take a minute and think about the phenomena called development! What it is and when it ends? You can also thing about the starting point, you own motive in that kind of movement.

• Do you think that development is a good thing to be and to have?
• Would you like to be more in the mental development process than in the material development process? You surely can say no bad things about the mental development process! Can you?
• Are they totally different? Do you think, that it is more vulgar to want more money than more knowledge or skills and that way to develop yourself?
• They are totally different things! They cannot be one, even if the main motive in both is, that ”I am not enough!” - ”I have not enough!” - ”I am dissatisfied!”
• Do you measure the development - mental or the money wise - always with the quantity - $10.000 vs. $100.000, I have more knowledge - 100 books vs. 1.000 books? Or if I have more knowledge I can make more money!

• What is the end of the development? How much is enough? What is the goal of the movement called development?

What good does the development do?
• By development I become a better person: more and/or better skills, more and/or better knowledge.
• That means more money.
• More and better goods.
• Your value is better, when you are working in organization, that is in the leading edge what come to developing things.
• You get satisfaction from it.
• Everybody does it and there is no better way.

All these are correct, but are they the main goal and does it bring the goods it promises. Think about the subject with open mind. Take into consideration the mental development, that happens through the knowledge. Let’s start the real study of the development in the following chapter.

In short: The human being is looking for something and everything that gives him a feeling that he has enough. The culture gives the means and the goals. Whatever the person get or has is after awhile unsatisfactory. So the person want more and better things. Unconsciously he is always blaming himself. He doesn’t do enough. Others are happy. Only he is unhappy. In a fact the person is unconsciously dissatisfied to himself. So the development is born from the dissatisfaction, from the bad feeling of the people. And development stinks, if it cannot cure that feeling.

The development is always directed into the future.

 

12. The process of the development

To understand and Perceive better the development, I tell you about the process of the development. Before you start to read imagine a development process of your own, for instance your path of education.

In the process of development is always question about time. It is the main thing in the functional side of the development. I have already said that development is a movement.

Let’s go on! The development is a process. Take into parts your path of education. It started when you was about 7 years old. There was several goal. The higher you got, the more sure you was that it stop somewhere and you would be happy. But every time you had to start the process again. Now you are somewhere and you are still unhappy or unsatisfied. You want more! Have you ever wondered, when it stops. Now they have discovered and saying everywhere, that life is an everlasting school. You have to educate yourself forever.

When we speak about education, I can except it, but if we are talking about life in more general term, it means, that you have to be in different kind of movements forever, because there is no satisfaction for a human being in life. Doesn’t it sound marvelous! Is that it, what you want from life?

The process - more knowledge:
• The starting point. Draw a line on a paper. Put there the starting point. You don’t start empty handed. You have already certain amount of knowledge. 
• The ending point. Draw also that into the picture.
• The time line. You drew on the paper a time line, longer or shorter.
• If the picture would be a trip, you could imaging, that there are also other elements, that you could take into account: the speed, the skill with what you travel and so on.

The question was about the knowledge. I put it into quantitative form. You knew 10 books and now you know 100 books. That was you quantitative goal. In reality it was of course some kind of a degree.

You reach the goal and you are better and you are happy, satisfied. You have got the degree. Was the knowledge of 90 more books or to get the degree your real goal? Or is there something missing from the picture?

What was the feeling in the starting point? And what is the feeling now when you are in the ending point? In the starting point you was unhappy, insufficient, unsatisfied. Now in the ending point you are happy, sufficient and satisfied.

Let’ see also the feelings during the process. You learned well. You said to yourself unconsciously: ”I’m good!” You leaned fast. ”I’m good!” You went though the hard parts easily. ”I’m good!” You succeeded with your own strength. ”I’m good!” And so on. The feelings were good so long they lasted.

The overall conclusion seems to be, that the development did, what it promised!

The example was only one trip, one degree in your life. The satisfaction of that degree fades away. And again you are unsatisfied. And again and again you go into the same kind of processes. The happiness fades away. And you are unhappy again. Is that what you are only looking for? If so be happy!

What is the dominating feeling in the process? There is only one big, good feeling at the end of the process and small ones during the process. But the overall feeling is kind of bad one. ”I am not satisfied!”

So what you are really searching? To me there is only one answer. We are looking the Final Satisfaction or better still the Final Sufficiency. Other wise we are only moving because we want to move. And that is not a beautiful picture.

If I would be a wise guy, I would say, that the motive of the movement or the development is to stop. To reach the Final Goal and stop. If you are traveling from A to B, the motive is to reach B and stop. You could argue, that when we are speaking about education, we ’travel’ from A to B, when we take a course and reach the degree. But it is not enough, then we take an other course and that is an other trip.

OK, the same way we are also traveling. Our life don’t stop, when we reach the point B. We are now only ready for the second trip.

I accept that! But let’s now think about the whole life, not only a short period of life. Is the motive of development in life only to be in the movement because of the movement and feel some short moments the good feelings. Is that it? That I don’t accept at all! If you want that way, then go ahead!

Before I stop, let’s talk about the real subject in the development process of a human being. The goal is not the Final Satisfaction, but the Final Sufficiency. If you look the process, there are two different things going on. The first are the short periods and the reaching the goal that gives some satisfaction. Then there is the big picture, the whole life long process.

If the human beings are looking only the short term satisfaction, they get is. But let’s speak about the long term goal, the Final Satisfaction. When we take into account the Sufficiency, we get a whole lot of different scenario. The human being don’t find the Sufficiency, in the process of development. That is the main reason for the everlasting movement. We are unconsciously looking the Final Sufficiency in our life. And that the development process doesn’t give us.

So if we think, that the Final Sufficiency is the Final Goal in development process, we are doing things in life in vain. The only thing we get are the short periods of satisfaction.

So the main engine of the development process and the development is the feeling of insufficiency.

And the unconscious Goal of the human race is to reach the Final Sufficiency, where there is no movement anymore. If you look sharp the word anymore, you can get a wrong impression. You start thinking, that everything stops. There is no development. People are only lying around, doing nothing. And so on.

That is totally wrong picture! How much we are wasting time only because we want to feel happy or satisfied. The other reasons for doing things are secondary. So there is still movement in the New Order, but it is in the different Absolute System of Operation. There is movement, but it is not lead by the insufficiency of the me of the person.

 

13. Good and the relative good

As you see form the previous chapter, if I take seriously the term Sufficient Good, I have to tell you how the knowledge of the Absolute Goodness comes to the people. I also have to tell you, how a human being is programmed so, that nothing relative good is enough.

I will show you, that the reason for the behavior, that puts the human being to seek the better and better things, cannot become from the genes. If it would be so, we would be doomed to be in the process of development as individuals and as the human race forever without reaching the Final Goal.

If we would have a possibility, the program that makes us behave this way has to come from the surrounding. And not any surrounding. We have to have the relatively same surrounding. I will tell you the whole story in the chapter ”The secret life of unborn child”. I cannot give you the total proof, but I give enough, that you can have something to think about.

Before I go so far, I have to take into consideration the word good, the relative good and what it means to a human being.

Think a moment about the word ’good’:
• Define the word ’good’!
• As a motive in our life we seem to have this saying: ”Today I am already good, but I want to be better or own more!” If it is so, we have to understand, what the word good really means.
• The word good means really nothing. More important to us is the word better. That word means, that we compare two things together and the second one of those is better than the first one. What is good today is bad tomorrow, if we find tomorrow a better one.
• The thinking process can only measure and compare. That is the relative process of the thoughts.
• Krishnamurti asked in one of his books: ”Can the goodness develop?” The word goodness is kind of big word, Absolute word, but I consider it the same way, than the relative good. So the question could be in the form:”Can the relative good develop?”
• I think that I heard you cream ”Yes, yes, yes…of course the good can develop!”

So let’s go farther!

As I have been telling the people have not enough good feelings or the good. Nothing relative good is enough for a human being. This gives birth to development and to the hope. The hope means, that when today is not good tomorrow will be better.

The movement or the process of development can be seen from two angles. There are two different forces, that are influencing to the movement. One is the pulling force and the other one is the pushing force. In on other way I could say, that we are running after (= the pulling force) and running away (= the pushing force). When we want to hard-working, we can run after it. It is a good value for a person to have. In an other way to say the same thing, we are running away from the laziness. Say to me which one is the main force in our movement?

Are we then running after the good things, that give us the good feelings. Or are we running away the opposite of the good thing and the bad feeling, that I would give us?

I am willing to say, that the main force is the bad one. It is sure, if we stay, but if we move, we have to possibility to reach the good feeling. Someone wants to the knowledge of 1.000 books, not to be wiser but because he doesn’t want to be stupid.

The negative force is unconscious one, but does that make it less powerful?

In short: If the normal person doesn’t know nothing about development, the less he knows about relative good. Technically the former sentence is incorrect. The people have the understanding about the development. At the same way the relative thinking process has a idea about the relative good or goodness. But when we start the thing from the behavior of the people, that nothing relative good - money, knowledge, skills - isn’t enough or sufficient, then I could think that the concept of the Sufficient Good doesn’t belong to the relative system of thinking. That is beyond the understanding of the thoughts.

The ordinary person has to be reaching unconsciously after the Absolute, Total, Sufficient Good, when nothing relative good is not enough.

 

14. The chain structure of the good feeling

The action of a human being is like running in a circle. The individual steps in the circle are - (studies, education) - work - money - goods and services - happiness. From one the human being goes to the following.

Ask yourself a question. Do you work because you like to work. Or do you use the work to get something else, like money. Do you like the money, because of the money? No, you use money to buy things. Do you want the goods and services because you want them. Or do you get from the goods and services a good feeling? What comes after the good feeling? Does it stop there? In a way yes, it stops there. There are no other links in the circle.

If you go from work, to money, to goods and services and to happiness, the good feeling, what you do, when the good feeling is not sufficient good after a moment of satisfaction? You start the circle again adding the efforts. In your early life you can go back to school or educate yourself, but after awhile, you only go back to work. More and better work guaranties you more money and so on. But if nothing is enough, you are in an everlasting circle that keep on growing.

I think you know understand what I have been driving after. But let’s go a step farther. Let’s ask a silly question! Ask in every step the same question: ”Do I need this, if I have enough the following?” When you come to the last step, the good feeling and it is not enough, go back, at first to education, but later to the work step. And keep on asking. What do you found out? From what step you can step aside and stop the circle? What is the step, that can be enough and stop the ’play of life’ of the human being in the operation system of thoughts?

The Final Satisfaction or better still the Final Sufficiency don't come by running this circle. You can have or be more than the other people, but it only gives you a small portion of satisfaction. As I keep on saying, that is the only comfort the human beings have: ”I am better than those others!” I could laugh, it is so funny, when I were not crying.

Think about this - what is important?
I used the chain to find, what is important in the human life. What we really want to do with our life? Through upbringing we get the values - what is good and what is bad. We study. We work. We make money. We buy things. And all that because we what to be happy, good, satisfied, sufficient. The is the final step in the circle.

When the running in the circle ends? Or is the main point only to run in larger and better circles? Humor me, say that you think so only because nobody has never given you a change to think differently.

I give your that change, there is only one possibility: ”You stop the circle of witch, when you are Happy Enough!” Or would it be better to say, that you stop, when you are in the Final Sufficiency.

As you may see, that doesn’t mean that you stop doing those things in the circle. No you still do them, but the feeling in doing those thing has changed forever. You do them because you do them. You are not doing them to be better for yourself.

 

15. ”Can the goodness or happiness develop ?”

As I mentioned earlier, I take a more earthy attitude toward the word goodness. That is why I ask plainly ”Can good develop?” Good is a feeling. That is why I can change the question still and ask: ”Can the good feeling develop!” The question may feel silly, but I am deadly serious and am looking the normal human behavior

Think about the circle of witch! Does it show a common behavior of the human beings. Does it show, that the people behave as if good would develop.

When I start this trip, I consider the good  same as the happiness. Everybody has been happy. Everybody knows happiness. Define the word happiness!

A true story about happiness:. I was happy in year 1981. There was a party in an old wooden house. I had a girlfriend. I was in love. I was dancing. The music came from an album of John Lennon and Joko Ono. There was red wine. Candles were burning. At first my girlfriend was dancing with me. Then I kind of woke up and I was dancing alone. Time had stopped. I had no feeling of the place either. When I ’woke up’, I knew that a moment ago I had been happy. When I ’woke up’ the happiness was gone. My thinking process was also dead during the time of happiness.

What would the normal human being do after that kind of situation? He would marry the girl. By lots of wine bottles and candles. Rent or buy the house. Buy all the records of John and Joko. And most of all he would have arrange the same kind of parties over and over again. He would have been searching the happiness with the things that were present  Because the ordinary person wants to measure. For him it is hard to measure the happiness, the feeling. He has never even done that. To him the feeling comes from the things that are present when he is happy.

Now I can tell you, that all my work would have been in vain. One question remained: ”If it is true the real happiness, the really good feelings is, when there are no time, nor place, nor thinking present, then the real happiness is an Absolute Feeling of Good. And the person who feels that is living in the place called Now, Now, Now…

So according to this story, the Happiness is, when it is and you don’t know it. You know it not until you began to think. And then the Happiness is gone.

Let’s take another example! We have two persons, they both own a sailing boat.
• Person A has a 5 meters long sailing boat. Person B has a 10 meter long sailing boat.
• Which one is more happy?
• Or in other word, which one is better?
• Or which one has more the good feeling or the good?

I think you chose the Person B! Is he more happy and is he better person and has he more the thing we call the good, the goodness?

Let’s take the third example! Now there is only one person, you!
• You was happy in year 1990 and the second time in year 2001.
• Compare the two moments of happiness!
• Did you was more happy in year 1990 or other way around?
• Is it difficult to say? Let’s make it a little bit easier. You bought a 5 meter long sailing boat in year 1990. You was satisfied for awhile (not eleven years). Then you bought a 10 meter long sailing boat in year 2001. Also then you was satisfied for awhile. You had a good feeling.
• Compare the feelings of good! Was the feeling bigger in year 2001?

I think, that most of the people choose the year 2001. If you did so, can I say, that you behave like the good would develop?

Let’s say, that the feeling of goodness or happiness is an Absolutely Good feeling without time, place and the thoughts. How big the feeling is or was? Or if you like it better, let’s forget the nonsense talk about the Absolute Good and only let’s say, that you had in 1990 and in 2001 definitely a good feeling. Let’s even say, that they were different sizes of feelings. Let’s say that the feeling you had in year 2001 was bigger.

Now you have to give me a exactly answer. How big was the feeling in year 1990 and in year 2001? What do you use to measure it? Do you use the money, the price, the meter, the weight or what. Answer, please!

Or is it true, that you cannot measure the your feelings of happiness?

The same way than in my true story, now there are two things present, when you feel the good feeling. First there was the feeling and there was the subject, that was present, when I ’woke up’.Is there any sense to differentiate them? The only sense is, that when I differentiate them, I can measure the concrete thing.

True was in the examples,
• that there was different boats and
• the different feelings of happiness.
• And the boats had something to do with the feeling.

We cannot deny those facts. What if the feeling of happiness or the good feeling is always the same size. What does it mean? I had the 1990 boat and I was happy. I had the 2001 boat and I was happy. The feelings were the same size. And they were good, because they happened, when I was not happy.

My me want to mix with the subject. My me is for me insufficient. I want to be better. My me uses the boat to become better. I give myself the positive mental strokes - ”You are good! You have a beautiful boat! You can sail it well!”

What if the feeling is always Absolute or Absolutely Perfect or one Size? Then there would be nothing to measure. It would be absurd. What would be it’s influence to life? You couldn’t compare the feelings, because you couldn’t measure them. So it would be impossible to develop. So the conclusion would be that the goodness or the good feeling doesn’t grow or develop.

If that would be true, the most of the people would loose their hope in life.

The behavior of the human being show, that we live like the good feeling would develop. Why else people buy better and more goods? Why people have to work harder and earn more money? Why we compare the goods we have to the goods of the other people? As you see again, the behavior of people is rationally irrational. On the surface the behavior is rational, but it you look from little bit deeper, you see, that the behavior is irrational. Also if you take the hidden motives of the human behavior into consideration, you see, that the behavior doesn't lead into the Final Goal. That make the behavior of the human beings even more rationally irrational.

So you may see, that there is something wrong with the process, with the operation system not with the human action. We do, what we can, but the odds are against us. With the bicycle we cannot reach the moon.

Only with this kind of explanation I can understand the human behavior and why nothing relative good isn’t enough and why there is a phenomena like development. And when we think about the relative goodness and that nothing isn’t enough, then there has to be a hidden memory of the Absolute Good in the human brains. Now we need to take the unborn child from the womb and give the explanation, that is enough.

One thing that you should keep in mind, is that usually nearly all the thing I am talking to you are unconscious ones to the human being.

 

16. The secret life of an unborn child

I stumbled to a book written by Verny sometimes in the early 80’s. It really blow my mind away.

I take only few things from the book. You better read the book, if you are not convinced about the capacities of the unborn child. The thing is, that the brains of an unborn child are ready to function, when the fetus is about 6 months old. Also the senses are functioning. The fetus sees, hears, feels, smells and tastes.

The fetus has the storage place and the senses. The memory is empty: - tabula rasa. The fetus can store, what ever it senses from the surrounding and from mother.

Very important question, before I continue is: ”Can you remember all the things, that has happened in your life and what you have stored into your memory?” In other words is there in your memory something, that you don’t remember, but which certainly is influencing you behavior?

If you are honest, you say ”Yes there is and it influences my behavior unconsciously!”

So we could say that, if the machinery of the fetus is in condition to work, that there are things in the memory from the time, when the person was in mothers womb and they are guiding the behavior

I once thought about the fetus and I wondered, what on earth the fetus understood about things. It it to stupid to do a thing. The fetus certainly has no knowledge about the relative things, about good and bad, about fast and slow. The fetus cannot compare things. The fetus has no words, no values… What the fetus puts into the memory?

The mother is smoking. Nicotine is in the circulation. The blood goes into the circulation of the fetus. The fetus is in the panic, kicking. And it also makes a mark into the memory. What would you think goes into the memory? Is it a good or bad memory?

Some irritation comes from outside the mother. The fetus reacts. The fetus makes a mark into the memory. The mother has some really bad feelings. The father of the fetus is dead. The fetus reacts and makes a mark into the memory. And all these marks are bad.

These was bad experiences and they were put into storage place. What about the good feelings? As I said, I cannot imagine no relative good feelings. If you don’t believe me, take the first time the fetus meats something good. The fetus has no former good things to compare. So he has no relative good.

Is there any goodness in the surrounding of the fetus, that he could use to storage.  What about the condition, when there is no disturbances? What is it like? I would guess, that it should be Absolutely Good. I would imaging that it would be the same than being in the ’hands of God’. It would be the Absolute Happiness or the Absolute Satisfaction or the Absolute Sufficiency or the Absolute Peace. Our thoughts don’t recognize that or believe that, but does it denies it’s existence. No way!

The main point in the life of the fetus is, that there are disturbances, that throw him away from the Absolute Good feeling. That is enough for the human beings to become a human being. That is the core of the program, that makes the human beings behave the same way. Every human being has been born from the nearly identical surrounding. Everybody has had the disturbances. Some more, some less.

That is the CODE OF LIFE. And the most important thing is, that the fetus can do it, all the fetuses can do it and do it! When the child is born, and its me or self develops when the child is about one year old, the child starts to collect relative good feelings. And there is no satisfaction or sufficiency. Nothing is enough.

The more the fetus had those bad experiences in the womb, the more he is concentrating into collecting the positive strokes, when he is alive and in the world. And that is influencing the collecting of information. And that is influencing the storage of the information. What is the most important thing in the intelligence? It is the information.

The testing of intelligence is one of the darkest section in the history of science. I think that one of the main studies were made like this. ”They took pare of identical twins. They were separated just after the birth and raised in the different surroundings. They had the same IQ. Because the surrounding was different it should have made an influence into the IQ. But when it didn’t influence the IQ, the factors of the surroundings were excluded. Then the only explanation are the same genes. End of the study.”

When somebody explains something about the human behavior with the genes, I want to kill, to kill, to kill. This kind of studies are always the same. The scientists take everything into account, and after they have done that, and there is not one thing, that could explain the phenomena, they rise their hands and shout aloud. ”I didn’t find any things from the surrounding, that could explain the phenomena. So there is only one explanation the genes.”

This kind of studies are easy to destroy. Find one factor from the surrounding and that’s that.

Now you know, that the twins have totally same surrounding, the womb. They experienced everything together. And when as I said the intelligence is connected very much into the catering of information and the use of the information, then the same disturbances during the womb period has very much to do with the IQ.

Except for the disturbances in the womb, all the wombs are nearly the same. And in all the womb the fetus meats disturbances.

The memory of the Absolute Good, makes sense, when we look the behavior of human beings. So we all have nearly the identical surrounding. It is the only way not to hope better but to have a possibility. If the main factor behind our behavior would be the genes, we would be domed to be insufficient until the end. So take up the Bible and see the last sentences in the Genesis. When the God opened the gates of Eden and  led them nicely away from the Eden, our Game of Life began. We have only one possibility and no hope.

 

17. ”Today is tomorrow yesterday!”

Although we don’t understand or Perceive all the unconscious things that are directing our lives, we should be able to see, what our need to be better and the insufficiency makes us to do.

The sentence - ”Today is tomorrow yesterday” - simply means, that when we today hope for better and move to tomorrow the former today is now yesterday. That is simple, what does it mean?

It means, that in every today, we hope, that tomorrow brings us better life and that we then are better or have more. But it never happens, because we go on hoping. So the only thing we really have is the hope or the projections of our past knowledge put into the future. We know what is good or what does good for us. We do what ever is needed to get that. When we get a small satisfaction, sooner or later we start the same process over and over again. Nothing is enough.  And we are in a circle of the witch.

So I could say, that if a person doesn’t reach the Final Sufficiency, he luckily has the hope even if it don't’ lead into the Goal. The person has enough to go on living.

The box of Pandora was opened and there inside was only one thing, the hope. The meaning of this saying is two folded. If you think it ordinary, you say that the only thing left is hope. So we have hope. We can archive something that is worth something.

But if a Wise Man, that has reached the Final Goal, would say the meaning, it would be, that in the operation system of thoughts there is no Final Goal. And if the ordinary person sees it sharp enough, the only thing he sees it the hope, because now it not enough. As I say it, we don’t have hope, but we have an opportunity if only…

I was driving a car and going to a meeting were we were going to make an inventory of the deceased person’s estate, my father. I was listening the car radio. And a woman from Tampere had sent her favorite saying to the radio: ”Happiness is not when you arrive the station, but when you are traveling.”.

The Final Goal is certainly the arriving to the Final Station.

The saying is right, but it’s Final interpretation come from the other side of the Border. When you think about the process of development, you see, that there are many stations. And not any of them brings Satisfaction or Sufficiency. That is to me the metaphor of stations.

When you reach the Final Station you reach the Final Goal? It is Now, Now, Now…! In other words the Final Station is always present in Now. So I could also say, that it is, when you are traveling. Because, when you travel the right way, by being and living in the place called Now, you are all the time in the Final Station or Goal. That means, that the saying of the woman was and still is correct.

The you find the Life while living and that is the Absolute Life.

In short: If a person Perceives sometimes in his life the meaning of the sentence I mentioned earlier, he Perceives, that the search for more in relative terms is useless. The hope is not in the future, it is Now. So I could say, that there is no hope. The correct form is to say, that we have a possibility - Now, Now, Now… Only there we can reach the Sufficiency.

The code of the ordinary people in the operation system of thought is: ”I am already good and/or I have already much, but I want to be better and/or I want to have more!”

 

18. The levels of comparison and me is born

The life of a person, who is living in the operation system of the thoughts is centered around me. Every deed is me deed. Everything is done so the me of the person would be a little bit better. In a way the me deeds are two folded.
- I want to be more and better and
- I want to defend my me.

If we take the first description of the deeds, that means, that we are good, but we want to be better. That is the endless circle of life, the insufficiency of the me.

How does a person compares the things he archives in life, the relative good things? First he compares the new situation to the former situation. This is done unconsciously of cause. If I am more or better, that in the past, I am happy, satisfied.

The other way to compare is to see how the things are with the neighbor or the people I usually compare myself. If I am more or better that they are, I am good and happy. That may be the only way to be better and happier, because that comparison is a sound one. I have a better car than my neighbor, that is the fact. That is also the only satisfaction you normally get, because the first satisfaction is short living and after awhile you have to jump ’on the bike’ again to be better.

Let’s build the level of comparison. A human being is like on the stepladders. He starts from the bottom and climbs faster or slower and higher or stays low. Everybody have the same kind of stepladders. You can compare yourself to other people by the ladders. Of course you can develop different ladders for different articles, for instance for the owning of car and the education and so on.

There are tree kind of comparison possibilities:
- People are under your standing.
- People are on the same level.
- People are over your standing.

What is you mental standing against the people who are on different levels?
- People, who are under your standing, are air to you. They have nothing to do your comparison.
- People, who are on the same level and belong to the groups against which you are comparing yourself are the most important people in your surrounding. You are either lose or win them.
- People, who are over your standing are you idols. You admire them and take from them a example for your life.

So in my mind the people are able to live only because they have hope and they are still better than the neighbor You don’t take account those who are under your level. You are looking for the good feelings. That you can get only beating the guys on the same level. You don’t get any feelings from those, who are on the lower levels. They are air to you. They are losers and you are not. Why to compare yourself to losers. No way!

As I earlier said, in the total burn out, the me of the person is destroyed: ”I am nothing. I am a living corps.” The person has money and wealth. Does it help the living death. No way. He is now a wealthy living corps. The me is not a warehouse. It can be good only by doing things, by achieving something good. So the me is kept in condition only by doing things.

Does the me of a person lives forever? No it can die. The me is death, when the thoughts lose the control. As you see also here is the question of the mental mode. The is not really dead, but it stop leading unconsciously the life of the human being.

The death of me can happen in many way, as you surely understand. I can happen, when a person is giving birth to a child, in suicide situation, in accident, when a person take certain drugs, and so on. The easiest way it is done by meditation, when the thinking process is silent. But as you see, the me of a person is in this instances death only for awhile. And when the situation ends, he begins to live the normal life as nothing happened. You have to Perceive the situation and only then you See, what is the influence of your me to your life. The real situation is clear only when the person Knows Absolutely Oneself. Then the me is really death, meaning, that the operation system of the thoughts has lost it power for ever.

If the me of a person is born when he is about one year old, there rise automatically one question. What is there before the me of the person is born?  When you give answer to that question, you give at the same time answer to the big question: ”What do you have, when your me is dead?”

Me is differentiating the person from other persons. It means partition. What if all is together? I think it means the Wholeness is prevailing. Then the conclusion is, that before the birth of me and after the death of me the Wholeness is present in the life of the person. As sure is that the Wholeness is always in present. It is the Absolute Truth. When the me of the person dies, then the Wholeness is again. When the person wants to find the Wholeness again, he has to live in the place, where the Wholeness is ’living’, in Now, Now, Now…

Visualize for yourself a situation:
Imaging an ocean. The ocean consists of the particles, of the drops of water. One drop of water becomes me. The drop develops an imaginary surface, the me surface. The drop is thinking: ”I am me! I am separate from other drops!” The ocean still exists, it is the wholeness. The only thing that the drop is accomplishing is, the artificial separation. It is separated from the other drops of water and most of all from the Wholeness. All the drops are thinking the same way.

If the drop of water for some reason comes goes over the Border and comes aware of the Wholeness, he returns back to part of the Wholeness. And everything changes at that moment. Nothing concrete changes, but the mental landscape is totally different and he Sees it All.

This example gives you some implications of how simple it is. And the same time you see how difficult it is. For me to be death you have to experience a bigger thing that the physical death, which you by the way seldom experience yourself. To the people the death is a thought, that is projected into the future. It is not now, but a seconds away, so it is in the future. So we are not afraid the death itself, but the thought of death.

Think about this situation: A very small child dies. It is the cradle death. Could it be a suicide. We in Finnish use instead of one vague word the pair of words ”the killing oneself, the killing of me”.  There is present the subject and the object - the victim and the killer. The cradle child doesn’t have the me yet. So the me cannot be the killer and it cannot be suicide. The child is still with the Wholeness and he dies being with the Wholeness. So the death is kind of drawing back. There in no guilty parts in that kind of death.

At first the just born child is just staying alive. He does some things and get attention. It feels good. He also does thing wrong and the attention isn’t so good. It feels bad. This is good and that is bad. That one is better than the previous on. So the relative thinking starts, when the child can measure and compare. At that time also the me of the person is born. The child separate himself from things and other people.

Once upon a time LSD was not forbidden. There was many experiments. In one time the members of a experiment were just ordinary people - architects, priests, housewives and so on. The biggest fear among the participants was the lose of the control of the thought. And also the biggest enjoyment was, when the thought lost it’s control. 

Losing the control of thought is the first step into Knowing Absolutely Oneself. And it starts from the Awakening. And it can be dangerous situation in some instances, if the Awakening happens accidentally. It can be described as the Stepping through the Doors of Perception.

In short: Me is normally born during the first year, when the child is about one year old. The material that is inside the me, comes from the culture the child is living in. The education and the values of the parents give the basics. The child want to be good and in being so, he get the mental strokes from the parents. Later his life is concentrating in collecting and showing the good values he has. Me is then the unconscious picture of the self of the person. The leading attitude of the person - ”I am not OK!” - is shown in his action. Not in the conscious thoughts. That leads to the next steps, the person to educate himself, to gets skills and and starts to earn money. The more the better and the better the me of the person is. The biggest negative thing is the destruction of the me like in the total burn out or in death. Or you can also enjoy about it, when you finally Know Absolutely Yourself.

In short: The most important thing is, we haven’t the me, self from the start, but it develops in the running of time. At the same time the relative thinking develops. This together maker a man what he is. But there is a possibility, the man is not doomed. A person, whose me is death has Awakened and he Knows Absolutely Himself. That is the Final Goal of all Universal religions and philosophies and the life in more general term.

The BOOK of the books Part 3.