All the following points include these elements:
a. "Not quite" = I have been accomplishing a deed, but not quite. I have not reached the final goal. I have not got the feeling of satisfaction from the goal. In certain deeds I would have willingly stopped and stayed, if I had reached the goal.
b. "But" = I have reached relatively far, so that there has been no ill feelings, major disappointments. The accomplisment that is in the But gave me some satisfaction. The satisfation is either true or only my explanation. Either way I have continued of to reach the next goal and the next deed. I think that this is a noteworthy point, because otherwise the traveling would have stopped and my destination would have been different.
1. B.A. in swinging, in town of Kuopio, sometimes in 50's. (In Finland you can accomplish in swinging these kind of examen. Usually you do it when you are around the age of 10. It includes about ten deeds.)
a. Not quite - I didn't do the diving
from 7.5 meters platform nor the swimming of rescue.
b. but I did accomplish the most
part and it was quite hard.
2. The Secondary school or High school - in Kuopio
a. Not quite - I was worst of the worst.
Two times I doubled the class and nearly all other times I had to study during
summers to go through. Ones in the upper classes I had to do that kind of thing
in Finnish composition. I don't know if anybody has doen that or been so bad
student and still gone so far.
b. but for some reason beyond me,
I started to use two methods in my studies:
- from other subjects than languages and mathematics I started to write the
main points from the books on paper = main effect in history and the mark in
matriculation (examination) called 'reaali'
- in languages, English (short) and Germany (long), I started to read novels,
the longer the better (in English only after one and a half years studies) =
the marks jumped in to the sky.
You can see the results in the point 3. = 'reaali' mainly history the highest mark (laudatur) and the mark in my final paper was also the highest one 10, in English I got also the highest mark (M.E. - laudatur), and in Germany in spring the lowest (improbatur) and in autumn the second highest (cum laude approbatur). So I was at school worst of the worst, but at last I didn't do so bad.
3. The matriculation examination generally
a. Not quite - I didn't pass the examination
in spring like almost all the others,
b. but - in autumn. I think, that
I was the best of those who did it in autumn in the history of that school in
Kuopio.
5. Army - in the cavalry platoon of Lappeenranta
(Few explanatory words: In that time, if you had made the matriculation (examination) in Finland, you usually went to school of the officers. )
a. Not quite - I would have liked to
go to the school of officers before and after my service in the army.
b. but I was left to the state
of under officers. I was a good sportsman. You could say that I was the best
in my time in the army in my platoon. I got a lot medals. Usually the best under
officers in company's were raised to sergeants when they left the army. In the
last bay roll my rank was sergeant, but the rank name war drawn over, mostly
because I was caught playing poker with my troops. I was a good leader in warlike
situations, but I couldn't play a commander in playlike situations. So that's
that.
4. At the University of Tampere
(Few explanatory words: In Finland at that time everyone who made the matriculation (examination) went to university and the destonation of the high school was university, if not you was a failure. With my normal marks the university was out of my reach, but now with the highest mark in history and the marks in languages, why not.)
a. Not quite - I didn't get the examination
of B. A. in economics,
b, but a lot of knowledge (that
that kind of knowledge doesn't do a thing in life - economics, foreign politics,
sociology, statistics, tourism, and so on - if you want to know the behavior
of a person). So I didn't do the last written examination. Although I made the
same kind of examination in my second major subject - foreign politics - which
subject I originaly took, because you could do it by reading not like in economics
understanding, which I didn't do. Later I did my wife's examination in a subject
I haven't been studying at all. Also I made my
study (in Finnish) from the Learning Organization, but it was not accepted.
I made it in 7,5 hours with the 'cut and paste'-method from the material I had
been writing for over 15 years and I corrected it over a week. But it was not
good enough for the University of Joensuu for the department of economics. That
subject was the only worth something I could figure out in economics. There
is no human behavior under the economics.
5. As a teacher of economics and tourism at the commercial school in Savonlinna
a. Not quit - I didn't become a teacher
of commercial school, I didn't go to a teachers school and I didn't have the
commercial working experience,
b. but I was a hell of a teacher,
when I got the subject of the marketing psychology. I went through the roof.
I learned to use calculator and a calculator that you could program, when I
tought commercial matematics. I learned all the things, curves and so on, I
didn't learn in the university in economics. I learn to use the computer. I
studied all the methods in statistics, that you can use in prediction and they
were useless for me. They had nothing to do with the behavior of human being.
The things I learned in marketing psychology and the religions of the east and
in transaction analysis were the main thing.
6. I tried the business of my own
a. Not quite - I was not going to be
a business man,
b. but I got two times money to
start my business. So my ideas were not that bad. With the money I bought a
new Macintosh computer and with the first money I got over from the state I
was in, when I was forced to quit the teaching.
7. At the course of expert of the traveling in the nature in Savonlinna
a. Not quite - I had knowledge of the human behavior and experience of tourism, but I had no use for them until I went to that course. It didn't lead to a job, I didn't become a acting expert,
b. but I am still alive. First time in my life I worked in a group. I got my first friends. I started to think about the use of computers in Internet and the products that would do well there. I started to develop my ideas about 'a headquarters' and most of all I started to think about the word 'satisfaction' as been the main goal in life and especially in tourism. Through the explanation of that word everything cleared. Through that course I climbed from the bottom upwards.
8. - and so on. There are other things about me Not been quite, but - all my hobby's were like that. I used to think that they stopped because it seemed, that I was only interested in knowing what made them tick. When I knew that I stopped and looked for another. So was with shooting with a small caliber pistol, Ping-Pong, salmon fly dressing and fishing, sailing, and so on. But now I know better.
As reader has noticed, I went so far, that I was not disappointed enough to stop the search. Another way is to say, that I didn't get the usual satisfaction and the excuse to stop there and be happy. So I get going until I reached the only thing that was enough forever. So now I Know Absolutely Myself, the behavior of one person, me and so the behavior of all the people who are born from the womb, because all the main behavior of people is the same origin. If you think the life as a line, it has usually the starting and ending points. I traveled through the life until the Last Point or the Final Goal. So the "Not quite, but" is was not according my wishes and there has to be a Plan, that I had to go through.
I once thought, that there are only very few people in the Final Goal, because I haven't met any that has gone through the trip like me. Now I think that there are few people who have gone through the Doors of Perception (Aldous Huxley) or who have Awakened (the word of Anthony de Mello in his book 'Awakening'), but they are afraid to see what There is. They have like shades on their eyes. Anthony de Mello tells you how you can bee Awakened, I tell you what you see when you open your eyes over There, how you Know Yourself Absolutely and how you firts time understand what the Bible or Jesus says.